day to day

Had a fantastic Thanksgiving in IL with my sister and family.  My cough was pretty much gone as well. We came home on sunday, stopped and bought an early Christmas present for the family of a big screen tv and a wii system. The minute we walked into the house I started coughing again!  something in here is really kicking up my allergies. not sure what but seems some major cleaning is in order. Ugh I hate to clean!

will wonders never cease?

Got a letter from the imaging center today saying my results were normal.  Still nothing from my doctor though - wow will wonders never cease???

Told you so

It is now Monday and even though the results were faxed last Wednesday I still haven't heard a word from my regular doctor!  why am I not surprised.  After doing the stuff I have to do today which is pay bills and clean I am going to sit down with the phone book and find us a new family doctor. This is ridiculous!

Relief

Called yesterday about the results - stupid drs office told me they wouldn't have the results till next week!  I refused to sit here and worry about it any longer than I have too and I know how my drs office is about calling so I decided then and there to call the imaging center and see if they had them yet.  The lady told me they had just gotten them and that my dr should have them as well since they were faxed to both places at the same time - I knew they were full of it!  Anyway, the lady was so nice and gave me the good news that there is nothing abnormal in the final results - such a relief! God does answer prayers that is for sure.

Patience is a virtue

I've always considered myself to be somewhat of a patient person.  I don't remember ever over stressing wanting christmas or birthdays to get here faster.  I will admit that when hubby and I were divorced and in the process of reconciling that I wanted time to hurry till we could be back together,  and wanted vacation to arrive a little faster but not a whole lot more.  Now, however, I find myself to be stressing big time wanting the dr to hurry up and call me with the results.  If it's bad news, then so be it, but let me know now!  The waiting and not knowing is agony.  I know that I need to just turn it over to God and let what will be be but when I sit and think of all the possibilities and outcomes there may be it terrifies me.  Just let me know already!

Now what

On October 20th, I did the responsible thing and had a mammogram done. It had been a couple of years so I was well past due.  A week later I got a call saying that not to panic but I needed to return for a more extensive one as well as a sonogram on the left side.  I had previously had a biopsy on the right side and have had to have repeats done on that side due to scar tissue so this scared me pretty bad.

Today, November 1st, I returned for 2 more pictures, plus a spot compression plus the sonogram.  Pictures were done with a lot tighter compression this time and I was actually still a bit sore from the last one so that didn't help any.  Then to the ultrasound room where she did her magic and started doing the scan.  Now I don't know anything about what is supposed to look normal but even I could see the black spots!  Now I am really scared. Sending up prayers that it will just be a cyst or something other than the dreaded C word.  Can I cry now?