tired

so tired of being ignored or shut out. I know it is his Hep C but that doesn't make it right that he treats us like crap half the time.  Seems so much like it was 8 years ago when things started falling apart.  There are moments of intense sweetness when I know that he loves us deeply but those are coming fewer and farther between.  He is once again pushing us away like he doesn't want us to help him thru the next treatment - thing is I know if we weren't here he wouldn't do the treatment at all.  I love him with all my heart but I am tired of being hurt and feeling like I am a piece of furniture - just there when he needs it or wants it.    Catherine has been in tears because of the way he treats her - not abusive in a physical sense but he ignores her or pretends he is listening when all of his attention is really on the tv or on the book he is currently reading.  I wont' leave - I love him too much for that but how much of this can I tolerate even before he starts the new meds?  Am I hurting all of us more by putting up with it?  With the grace of God I hope things will level out soon.