On Friday 7/ 15 hubby started his latest treatment for his hep C. Felt great all day and I was totally shocked! Even with the new med added no problems. Saturday the same except a little more tired. Sunday didn't feel too well but when I pushed him to drink for fluids he felt better. He really needs to remember to drink drink drink! Yesterday was Catherine's birthday - hard to believe she is 22 years old. :( My baby is all grown up now I guess. Just wish she could meet someone special. Anyway, back to treatment, yesterday he went to work and while he was exhausted he didn't feel too terribly bad. Hoping it keeps up. Not sure if the new med added is counteracting some of the side effects of the others or what but I'm not going to complain. We can deal with tiredness, and a couple of the other things he has going on as long as he doesn't get too terribly sick.
Not sure why I keep this blog as no one will ever see it most likely.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
tired
so tired of being ignored or shut out. I know it is his Hep C but that doesn't make it right that he treats us like crap half the time. Seems so much like it was 8 years ago when things started falling apart. There are moments of intense sweetness when I know that he loves us deeply but those are coming fewer and farther between. He is once again pushing us away like he doesn't want us to help him thru the next treatment - thing is I know if we weren't here he wouldn't do the treatment at all. I love him with all my heart but I am tired of being hurt and feeling like I am a piece of furniture - just there when he needs it or wants it. Catherine has been in tears because of the way he treats her - not abusive in a physical sense but he ignores her or pretends he is listening when all of his attention is really on the tv or on the book he is currently reading. I wont' leave - I love him too much for that but how much of this can I tolerate even before he starts the new meds? Am I hurting all of us more by putting up with it? With the grace of God I hope things will level out soon.
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